This weekend is going to be pretty hard for me. There are a lot of things happening that are out of my control… things I do not want to do, but have to. Things that will change my life forever. It’s hard for me to handle… not being in control of the things in my life.
See… my husband is leaving for Afghanistan this weekend. His third deployment. His third time putting his life on the line for a country he loves. For me… it’s my third time having to watch the love of my life walk away… possibly forever… shattering my heart into a million pieces.
I was trying to explain to someone the other day what it felt like this week leading up to his deployment and said this… My heart is breaking into a million pieces and it’s happening slow motion. I can see everything playing out in front of me… my husband packing, getting ready, my love preparing to leave me… but there is nothing I can do to stop it.
So, I do what I can. I do the things I can control. And in my world, that’s baking.
I’m putting together two dozen care packages for my husband and his soldiers to bring with them on the plane ride to Afghanistan. I can control that. Right?
In the care packages I’m including a bottle of water, my Perfect Chocolate Chip Cookies, Espresso Brownies (a recipe I adapted from CakeSpy’s book The Secret Lives of Baked Goods), Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Granola Bars and these Cherry Chocolate Chip Granola Bars!
The recipe I used for the granola bars is originally from the Fearless Homemaker… but I mixed it up a bit and added dark chocolate cherry muesli and chopped dried cherries to the mix! YUM.
The outside of each bag had the soldier’s name on it and an inspirational tag I made with a small note from my family to each soldier. The quote I used on the tags came from General Normal Schwarzkopf…
True courage is being afraid and going ahead and doing your job anyhow. That’s what courage is.
I wanted to let them know that it was okay to be afraid, but that they are strong enough to push through the fear, do their job and come home safely to their friends and family.
These bags were super easy to put together. I used brown paper lunch sacks, red and white curling ribbon, red and blue card stock, a hole punch, scissors and glue sticks.
Assembly was super easy too…
- Print enough tags for each soldier. Use Photoshop to add names to each tag or hand write them on.
- Glue the tags to card stock and cut out along the edges.
- Fill each bag with goodies.
- Fold over the tops of each bag and punch two holes in the top. Punch a hole on the end of each tag.
- Push a red and white ribbon through the holes and tie in a knot. String the tags onto one of the ends of the ribbon and tie securely.
- Curl the ends of the ribbon.
So… this will be my husband’s 3rd deployment. One might think it’s easier each time to say goodbye.
A lot harder.
Maybe I should apply that quote to my life as well. *sigh*
So… I bake. I create. I put my love into making care packages for these soldiers. Because that’s the one thing… the only thing… I have control over in this process.
To my husband… I love you. Please, come home to me.