Since the rumors are flying… I thought I’d let everyone know what’s been going on with us the last 24 hours.
Yesterday, I went to Madigan for a routine monthly baby exam. Dave had tried to get off at work, but the powers at be didn’t let him come to the appointment (although I was told bye the CO that he could be there). So I had my Mom and Dad there with me. After answering all the standard questions, the doctor rolled in the ultrasound machine to look for sack the baby is in and to hear the heartbeat. The doctor squeezes the gell on my belly and proceeds to look for the baby. 5 minutes pass by, 10 minutes… the doctor tells us this is a new machine and it’s his first time using it. So, he calls another doctor in for a second opinion. The second doctor comes in, now it’s been 20 minutes, and he looks. They tried both the belly and vaginal ultrasound. Neither doctor could find a baby.
This meant 1 of 3 things. 1)It was too early to see the baby (which I knew wasn’t the case, I was at least 13 weeks) 2)It was a miscarriage or 3)It was an ectopic or tubal pregnancy. The doctors said they were going to send me to the lab to get more blood drawn to see what the horomone levels in my body were to determine pregnancy. At this point, I thought it was pretty important that Dave come to Madigan and go through all of this with me. So, I call the CO and he gets Dave to me with in the hour. I get my blood drawn and head home to wait for the phone call from the doctor to tell me what the outcome is.
A couple hours later, the doctor calls me back and informs us that it was a miscarriage and that the cramping I experienced several weeks back was probably when it happened. So tomorrow I go in to OB at Madigan to have one final ultrasound to 100% confirm and figure out if a D&C needs to happen. The docs don’t think so… but want to be sure.
So, we’re okay. This sucks… but in the light of the upcoming deployment, we feel a bit relieved. I still want to have a baby and will try again. Just now wasn’t the right time.
I think for at least the time being, we just need our space and time to grieve. Thank you to everyone who called, emailed, texted your condolances. Your support is really appreciated.